Where have I been?

Posted on 2009-Nov-25 at 07:03

Where have I been?

Well let’s see… just busy. Everyone is busy I know. Yet some are really good about blogging anyway. I just haven’t had the desire to be honest. Part of it is that after my ordeal with Frank I was exhausted. Then work started. Then I had to deal with Social Security.

I feel bad about not blogging but you know, my life just isn’t that exciting. I have also had a sudden urge to become invisible online- but it’s a bit late for that. My name and my business name is all over the internet. I did hide all of my personal ads, actually canceled them. Tired of the losers contacting me. Most of them don’t even know how to type a single sentence anyway. I get ‘mail’ that says, “hi, how are you?”. Fine. Peachy. Dandy. I mean, what is that??

No, I don’t have the energy or time for that. I just don’t anymore. I am watching (or listening I should say) to hockey online and watch the discs Dr. Dog sends me. He is my hockey Angel. He is a wonderful friend. If I was his neighbor I know that he would help me chop my wood and stack it for me. He would help me if I needed help, unlike my ”friends” here who I never hear from. But I live 3000 miles from him.

One thing I don’t get and maybe some of you understand this or have been through it. Why is it that when we get older we stop hanging with the same friends, stop helping our friends that we hung out with all the time when we were young and single? Why should having a relationship with others stop our friendships? But it does. I have an ex-friend like that who lives about 4 miles from me. Does he ever call me and ask if I need help? No. Does he ever call and say hey lets hang out? No. Yes, I have called him, invited him over when I have seen him at the store, etc. We were just friends, nothing more. And my ex bf, he lives two miles from me. Same story- wants to be friends but never calls, never hangs out, never nothing.

Ah I have gotten to where I don’t care anymore. I just can’t. I don’t get it, but I am not going worry about it either.I have a new motto, one I tell myself everyday when I get up;

“Never make anyone a priority who is only willing to make you an option”

That’s it and that is what I will live by. My priority is me, my kids, finishing school and living my life.

One more thing, I am going to be a grandma. Yep, hard to believe, even for me. My son is going to be a dad and he is trying hard now to change his life around. He is signed up for college and will start in Jan. His gf is also going. So I am helping them as much as I can. I will not spend money on it but since I graduated from the same college and work there I am helping with all of that for them. I really hope he sticks to it. I had a talk with him again today and he said he is serious about it and about changing his life. He is going to be 30 next year so he needs to do something for sure.

So that is about it from California. I may or may not be alone for Thanksgiving but if I am that is fine with me.

But all of you that are traveling or having family over, have a safe and wonderful Thanksgiving and I will try and post more often. I am reading yours!!

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Posted on 2009-Nov-26 at 11:56 by LauriesAsylum

That is an excellent motto. You can't force friends to call or visit with you. I learned that and now I don't care! It hurts, but, I feel they are missing out on a really good friend. Oh well!
It sounds like your son is getting it together, and congratulations on your upcoming grandchild. :)

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